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Jesus. Having a very jealous state of mind, and being a cynical person at the same time is absolutely terrible. And it doesn't help knowing there's a complete jerk face who's friends with her, and likes her as well, and has parties that he invites her to, but not me. He's a bad influence, but there's nothing I can do to stop any of that.

I just don't want her to turn into another partier who goes out every weekend to get wasted, and gets messed up. And I know I've heard her say she doesn't and hasn't and won't, but I'm an asshole, and in being one I like to believe otherwise. Well, not exactly 'like' to, but more or less forced.

I'd go to bed to try and sleep all this off, but then I'd be sitting in bed for an hour just making shit up in my head. I think I'm actually going to start working on my friggin' OHR game for once. Put my mind into something else completely. I've been meaning to work on my Zombie/Survival/Puzzle game.

note: learn to script better.

That, or I could just lay on the floor and stare at the ceiling for a while. Somehow that would probably calm me down.

I fuckin' need someone to talk to, but I have no way of going anywhere, and no one is online. I don't use the phone either, not that I have anyone to call.

Erk.

I think I just need to quit the internet altogether. I just hit a button, and I have no idea what the fuck it just did.